I feel especially emo today. somehow. Tomorrow's the start of the Mid-Year Exams, NOT for me. HAHAHAHAHAH, TO ALL THE HIGHER MOTHER TOUNGUE PEOPLE! WHO ASK YOU HAVE A TOUNGUE THAT IS SO HIGH? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay that.. was lame.

So, two more days till i actually take a paper, but im happy because im coming back home at 12~ WOOT WOOT. Honestly, I haven't revised much at all. Maybe a little maths, science, english vocab. But thats not enough is it? I don't know whether to praise myself or slap myself in the face. Its the first time I've ever revised, but everyone knows its not enough to get 7 or 8 A1's. I don't even wanna get 8 A1's. All I'm hoping for is that i get a few A's and have no subject below C5. Im content already. I don't know about my parents, but, yeah, thats okay for me.

I've been having weird dreams lately. And whats weirder is that i dont even remember those dreams. Whats EVEN weirder is that I say my dreams are weird when i dont even know them!

I just feel, a sense of guilt, a pain in the heart, whenever i get up from bed. I always remember only one single image of what happened in that dream, and I keep thinking what happened, and, I cant seem to know whats happening. All I have is a feeling of what that damn bloody topic is about. I didn't do anything wrong? Did I? Why am I having these dreams? Which I cant bloody remember!

Hopefully all these bullwaste isn't going to affect my examinations.

I always thought, being something like a Chairperson was fun. It was easy for me as a Monitor in my primary school. Because apparently all i had to do was take attendance, and shout " Keep Quiet ", moderately loud and if the class didnt shut up, it wasnt my fault. But, now, I fuggin take the responsibility for everything. People ask me this, request that, want me to do these, help them with those. What you think I am a fuggin god? I can't do EVERYTHING, at once. Well, Im not entirely complaining my life sucks or anything, it rocks. Some people just cant seem to see we are lucky to be what we are now. But, the point is, everything isnt as easy as what it seems to be all the time. I have a story in mind, but it will be quite time consuming to type it out. Okay whatever, I cant finish it I don't care. Here goes.

I look into my binoculars. I see something red, and zigzaggy. Then a take a step back, i see a rooster. Another step backwards, I see two boys looking at the rooster, wanting to eat it. I thought I've seen the full picture, but, i take another step back. I see a whole farm of animals. Now, that must be it. I took another step back, I saw that, the whole picture was just a poster on a bus. Then, i take another small step back, this time, i see that the the whole thing was actually a small stamp on a letter. Then, when i took off my binoculars, it was my mum passing that envelop with everything on it, to another buisnessman.

I have no idea why i just posted it up, and I have the reason to believe you dont understand the story at all. But, its interesting.. I heard that from a chinese assesment book during tuition. Okay,.. Im weird.

Regards
Renald

AHAHA, THERE IS NO COMMAR AFTER THE REGARDS! IM HELPING YOU IN YOUR MID YEAR EXAMS EH!!! HAHAHAHAHA.

-Renald

You were so similiar to her. Your voice, your facial expressions, everything. I don't want the same thing to happen again. Please, dont't let it happen again. Dont. It hurts.