Hello. I've decided to post. I haven't had one of those super long and interesting ( to me ) posts about life for a long time. Felt like it, so, here we go again.

You know, when you are feeling down. All songs make sense. Even japanese songs you dont understand makes sense, you just feel that it is singing what you feel. Even Lady Gaga makes sense. Okay maybe not. She goes like, po(x10)ker face, po(x2)ker face, mum (x5) . Okay the "x" represents times, okay, not some weird smiley face thing.

Whats poker face? I dont know. And Just dance, everythings gonna be okay. No its not, someone just broke up with his girlfriend, he dances, no, its not okay. He still has a month or so to fucking accept it. And whats with the talk about whether or not he has a dick? Oh sorry, she. Yeah, what? Haven't you seen her bloody music videos? Whats ironic is that she strips. And you can clearly see theres no bulge down there. Not that i purposely view the videos or anything. -cough-

Sorry, got carried away. But yeah. You know what I mean. Last Saturday sitting on the bus listening to my mp3 while on the way home, I listened to Snow by Red Hot Chili Peppers really closely. It actually made sense. I dont know. On the exterior its just like some pathetic emo rap that has good beat and actually sounds good. They go like, hey oh, listen what I say oh. And I did that, I listened to what they said. It was actually meaningful.

I used to be a critic of the Jonas Brothers. Well, I seemed so. I was a big fan of Busted that time, so I was pretty pissed for no reason when I found out Jonas Brothers took their song and sang it and the whole world knows that song because of them. Everybody in school were talking about it and I kept saying, they suck. Without actually listening to them. I eventually did, and I keep saying, that I soon found myself singing their songs while in the shower.

Well yeah, they are good. Honestly I don't know where this is going, but I'm rambling on.
So, I learnt my lesson. Whatever that "lesson" is.

I always write songs. I never complete them. I'll give you examples. Loads of'em.

The first one is a song I made during a really, confusing time.

Why, must I endure all this pain.
Why....
Why.....
Why........

Okay I forgot the lyrics. But whatever. The latest one I tried making was well, good. Well, to a certain extent. I got past the first verse, chorus, and half way through the second verse. I kinda got ideas for the bridge but I didn't write them down. Soz, screwed again.

This post wasn't really long I guess, but a vast improvement from the previous few. It isn't about life as well. Haha, but whatever.

And now time for the usual, emo one liners.

I don't think I have a chance, zero. But like Tottenham fans say, Keep the faith.
It wont happen if I dont try. Things might seem bleak, but theres always light at the end of a tunnel. Unless its at night of course, but theres the moon. So yeah. My heart still skips a beat, when I think of you. Sitting there, with your head on your hand. Looking outside, at times looking back. If only I had what it took to show you how I felt.

-Renald