I got caught with a fever, probably would post more if I'm feeling alright.
If I don't, I'd probably lie on my bed for the whole bloody day.
Man this sucks, I wanted to go to the concert tomorrow.

Hopefully I recover in time for the class outing!
Fingers Crossed.

-Renald
Really confused.
Who?

Edit : I'm really confused right now. Being sick, I probably have the time to lie around and think about many stuff. I really don't know what I want in my life. What am I doing? I really need to know what I'm working towards in my life, if not, whats the point of school? Perhaps I read Vanessa's blog, and her post about her studies really hit me. At least she knows what she's going to aim for. Nothing's realistic, if you don't aim in the first place. These few days, I have plenty of time, not really going out anywhere, just staying home and being bored. I think its about time I made full use of my time here on Earth. Procrastination feels good, but whats the point? I don't just want to sit home, surf the net, go out with friends occasionally, play pointless RPG games. But, what else could I do? I really need to know, I need to get my life back on track. It hasn't started, it has to start soon. Real soon. If the world ends 3 years later, I don't want to look back on 16 years of my life just sitting around waiting for stuff to happen. I need to pull myself together, think, think. I need to do something, something to be proud of myself. Anything, hoping when my days here are limited, I know I've made a difference. I don't want to be, just another human. I want to live, enjoy myself, feel accomplished. Emotions are what we have to make us go on living, if not, what's the point? Nothing's impossible, I need myself to know. I know, but my heart doesn't. Whenever my mind says I can, my heart says, no, Renald, just sit back and relax. Its time to change this heart of mine, not literally though. This buddy has kept me going for 13 years and counting, but the time I have truly lived, still stays stagnant at 0 hours, 0 minutes, 0 seconds. Reading so many quotes, I know i truly have to get up and do something, but what exactly? I think I know myself, what I want. I really don't know whether its my mind, or my heart. Is it my mind, or my heart, that backs out on me when the time has truly come to do what I know I have to do? Either of which, I have to, and I know I have to, change it. To be loved for who you are, is easy. But you have to make yourself easy to be loved. Its time, Renald. Be who you can.