This day lasted really long. I was kind of glad to know its 1 hour to bedtime.
Things went well so far this week, despite one teeny tiny detail.
Suddenly, and just suddenly, I got the motivation to do so many things.
Did pretty okay for my the first tests this year, despite one or two mere passes.
Another boost are my spike shoes! Got them just today and tested it out when I came back.
Felt a little weird at first because it seemed like I put a lot of weight on my ankle but I'll get used to it.
Since there is a time trail next next Tuesday, coach said that he'll decide who to be in the relay team and invidual events. Suddenly, just suddenly, I have the inspiration to train.

Well, I'm looking forward to tomorrow, Chinese new year celebration and early release. Probably going to Ben's house after a movie to play tennis and swim.

I feel, my life has meaning again. I'm not quite sure whether doing so was the right thing to do, but at least I have one less thing to think about now. I'm pretty sure, judging from my past and personality, I'm going to have another heart crisis soon enough. But for now, I've decided to put all my effort into my studies and Track. Of course, enjoying myself as well.
I feel, weird too. It seems pretty awkward, I can't do exactly everything I want to. Pretty unnatural. I feel, limited, held back of sorts. Obviously, I knew what was coming from the start, but every blow is hard to take. It seems I'm more worried about what happens next than getting over it.

It doesn't matter anymore, its done and dusted. Nothing can change now.
They're more important things than this, and I know it..

For now, I'm lovin' life. But, FURIOUS WITH TOTTENHAM HOTSPUR.
Ciao, back to normal. Not really.

-Renald
Never again, No.
No, never again.