I deleted my previous post because I felt it wasn't good enough. LOL.

Man, I'm beat. I'm so tired, there's so many things to think about, plus the busy test week, and track & field. Its hard to motivate myself in training, I just feel the pain all around my body, and just carry on for not much reason. And suddenly my passion reverted back to soccer. It doesn't exactly help the mental strength with training on Saturdays as well.

Feeling really nervous, I don't exactly know how I would go about doing this. I've made my mind up, seriously. I'm seriously seriously serious. Its like so, weird. Reading some tips on sites has got me wondering, how do I get myself in that position in the first place?

Either way, its happening and hell yeah it is. I believe I'm starting to be more optimistic, looking at the bright side of things. All of you should too, don't like negativity bring you down. I'll try to listen to more happy songs on my iPod. Although not many of my favourite songs are happy ones. Lol.

Today we had uhm, the emergency exercise. Funny as hell, I had to go around checking attendance, and fanning people in hot sun in the parade square. Then Amelia and Chantel told me something that I didn't realise all along, then I was like : "Wtf.., SHIT." Then I ran to the back. LOL. Nevermind. Then I stayed back with Benedict, Josef, and Haoze for the chinese remedial we dread. Only 8 people turned up, lol. Before that me and Benedict ran down to the canteen and drank the super sweet milo and walked up to class. We had sugar rush, but couldn't show it because the teacher was fierce. Lol. Wasted that rush hour, because I came home and never came out again today.

Before today, whenever I felt jealous, I always sang this : " 你那么爱他，为什么不把他留下，为什么..." LOL. Lame. I know. Gotta go, Ciaossu!

-Renald